For You I'd Bleed Myself Dry

welcom2paradise @ 2006-09-15T15:39:00

2006-09-15T13:45:12Z

hello everyone, im gonna try to keep this short, since i dont have the link in my profile anymore, im not too sure how many people are gonna read this.
im now in florence, and i love it here. there are just so many differences, i was talking to erica yesterday and we realized just how different it is here, the things you cant get here, i miss my car, i miss fast food (even tho it is probably good i lay off that for a while), i miss tv (since we dont have one unless we buy them) i miss the internet for free, (you have to go in internet cafes here, only rich people are able to afford the internet here). i miss people speaking english. we live in the residentual area away from the tourist area, where no one speaks english, so my italian is taking me very far. i just miss the comfort of home. i miss a lot.
i miss my mom, and richie, and greg. idk how im going to survive without my family.
i miss my friends. i miss jill, and ashlee, erica, ashley, sam, brian, ky, altaf. i miss just about everyone
i could go on and on.... i dont realize how fortunate i am back in the USA, people here have half of what i have, and are satisfied. i have to walk 45 minutes a day to class. for me, i struggle everyday. for the italian, thats nothing. just the little things get to me. i have to pay .30cents a minute everytime i wanna call home. it is hard.

other than that. i am in love with the country. honestly i think if i had my friends and family here id be a lot more happier. it is gorgeous here. the weather is molto caldo (very hot) its about 90degrees and sunny everyday, although its supposed to rain all weeeknd. i think i have a hard time walking with the heat. thats whats getting to me. classes are going okay. italian is very challenging. my professor doesnt speak a word of english. and its so tough. im going to have to try to get through it. other than that, my life is good. i think we are all gonna go get piercings tonight. idk. im bored. i need to find a store that sells board games. it might help the time pass while in the apartment. the apartment is gorgeous. hmm idk what else. im gonna go. peace.

welcom2paradise @ 2006-08-24T15:40:00

2006-08-24T19:48:41Z

Hello Everyone!
i am going to make this a semi short entry, i have so many things to do. the summer is coming down to the wire. and let me tell you... i am so happy where im at with my friends. ive decided that shit happens for a reason, and life goes on. to have a relationship with someone for a long time, and never have them compliment you, or never treat you well. it sucks. i had this verbally abusive relationship that i needed to get out of, and finally did. i am NOT a bad person, nor do i have to be reminded time and time again that i am.
i guess it sucks, because in my eyes, the good memories outshine the bad, but in your pyschotic head it doesnt.
i have always stood up for myself, and i am a very strong individual, but for some reason, with you.. i became weak.
i fell victim to your crazy antics, and i let it happen time and time again. i let you push me around. time and time again youve tried to beliddle me... for that i thank you...
for now i am a stronger individual.

i leave in 13 days.
i leave september 6th at 6pm!

my life has been good. ive been talking with kyle more often, and i really dont know why we were never close in the past. he is a truly great person. a lot of my friends have left already. ashlee comes home september 1st. i am so happy to see her. i cannot wait =) i havent seen her since summer of 04. i love herr..

this is my first entry that i linked it to my facebook.
so for everyone that is now looking from facebook- i welcome you to my world. <3
i linked it b/c i plan on updating a lot when im in italy, so everyone can basically see my world for the 4 months while im gone.

see everyone soon =)

welcom2paradise @ 2006-08-11T10:57:00

2006-08-11T15:08:35Z

the past couple of nights have been good. ive been working, and such. wednesday night after work me and brian went and got pizza, and came back to my house and attempted watching father of the bride 1.. we tried watching it once before with lisa and ryan and jon, but we were distracted so we never got to see it. and right as i hit play, we both kinda passed out. he woke me up around 130, he left, then i passed back out, my brother came in around 2:30-3, woke me up, but i passed out, and woke up at like 4ish. DAMN THOSE COUCHES ARE COMFY.

Friday-i spent my day on the phone with professor convertini in florence. we spoke for about 2 hours. he was just updating me on what my life is going to be like for four months. im getting SOOOO NERVOUS.

then i kinda cleaned uup a little bit, and went to work. i worked 445-10. after work me, jon and lisa kinda drove around, we brought lisa home, and then me and jon met daniel, diane, and their 2 friends at the diner. that place was kinda weird. idk all i know is dan ate tuna, and didnt order it, nor did he realize it was tuna till he was almost done.
then i got spit in the face with saliva and pickles by diane. and that was my night. me and jonny drove home and blasted dashboard. =) i get to see them tomorrow.. YAYYY =)=) then spent some time on the phone looking at retarded britney spears, and asian nipples. lol (dont ask)

today im gonna get ready. i have to go to the mall and return this bag i got from urban outfitters in queens that i ordered. they sent it to me without the shoulder strap, has a big gash on the side, and they left the hard tag (security tag) on.. WONDERFUL. so i have to return it to roosevelt field, so they can send me a new one. SOOO annoying..
then im gonna make my way to the beach by myself (i think) and meet up with courtney, tom, and toms family, then court and tom will chill with me, going out to dinner with them and daniel, then i plan on making court & toms night on the island fun... <33

I AM SO DAMN EXCITED I LOVE THEM.

welcom2paradise @ 2006-08-09T12:57:00

2006-08-09T17:05:07Z

so my life isnt doing anything special. Hmmmm update from my last entry? Splish Splash was really fun. went with Nick, Sam, Jon, and Brian. Although sam didnt feel good and only went on 3 things, i felt bad. but we had a real good time. splish splash is my favorite place to be, because i enjoy water rides more than rollercoasters. The engagement party was on saturday. it was so much fun, and we really transformed the backyard into some tropical paradise. it was a lot of fun, and good to see family that you havent seen in a while, specially since you really only see them at funerals, it was good to see them at a happy occasion. i dressed like a little hula girl. although i didnt wear a grass skirt. i wore a tropical skirt tho. i think i looked cute. we ate, drank, caught up, and then it was over. it went wayyy to fast. but it was a good time. Now im looking forward to Courtney coming on friday.. Dashboard confessional on saturday, and then the next week- going to the outlets, and great adventure with dan and altaf. then sooner than you know it, it will be september 1st. my ashlee comes home from hawaii =). she hasnt been home since she left right after we all graduated in 04. damn ive missed her. and i plan on seeing her mucho.
my life has been alright. ive basically realized i dont need certain people in my life. i dont need the ones who say theyll call u and never do, who miss important shit in your life, and disregard everything, who decide that they need to tell me 24-7 how much money their family has, when thats not important. yah i lost friends this summer, but it was my decision. and im happy. i can officially say.... im happy.
id like to see who sticks with me when im away for 4 months.
that will be nice to see.
-Marisa

welcom2paradise @ 2006-07-22T15:23:00

2006-07-22T19:31:45Z

so my life has been pretty much a religious schedule of getting up every day later than i should, mope around the house till work.
ive been working pretty much everyday whether it be in massapequa, syossett or west babylon. last week i worked sat, sun & monday in syosset. i love it there. and i am getting used to the people, so i do not mind working there. sunday was the american idol concert. it was amazing. first me and dan went to this resteraunt called Papparazzi in westbury. it was delicious. our waitress looked like she rode horses her hair was down past her butt in a braid. twas kinda strange. then we got to the colliseum, after enduring bumper to bumper traffic, and almost dying on our way there b/c there were 4 accidents on our way there. it was rediculous. our seats were really good. we didnt have floor, but we had 2nd row from the floor. so we were basically floor level, just on the side. kevin covais was right by us, twas a good time. the show started with mandisa, then went to ace, then lisa, paris, bucky, kellie, chris, elliott <333333, then taylor. katharine was sick, and has yet come on tour, she is at home. which i was upset about but i thought they were gonna have kevin sing cuz it was his hometown, and he was there anyway, but NOOOOO. it was gay. but the concert was amazing. elliott was phenominal, and dan enjoyed taylor. it was just a real good time. afterward i kinda just chilled and showed his brother pictures and stuff, and headed home. other than that ive been pretty much not doing anything. getting ready for the engagement party, then going to splish splash on wednesday, courtneys coming down in 3 weeks, going to dashboard, and then six flags with a bunch of people. and ashlee comes home from hawaii for the first time since shes moved there in 2 years. she will be home september 1st-10th. i leave on the 8th, but at least ill get to see her.

ehh a quick little update. it was just pouring i was going to go to dans baseball game but it started to pour and i opted not to... just got back from lunch with him. gonna go lay down, and have work at 4. k peace<3

welcom2paradise @ 2006-07-11T12:35:00

2006-07-11T16:55:51Z

So theres nothing to really speak about since everything in my life is pretty much the same.
ive been seeing the same people i love everyday, nothing too new.
work=Ghey
Mark is home from the marines =) i got to see him twice. hopefully ill see him before he goes. hes only here for like 2 more days.
ive been dealing with a lot of italy crap. its not like going to a regular college u have to do ALL THIS PAPER WORK, then i have to get acceptances from dowling to accept all my classes, i keep on having to go there. its so annoying. then in august i have to go get a visa, because i will become a resident since i will be there over 90 days. since im over 90 days i have to get a visa, which means im not a visitor, but a resident. its so annoying. then im having issues with financial aid. we have to fill out all the shit, plus a few extras cuz im going international, and then they cant tell me how much im getting until thursday. yet the money is due friday. so my mom doesnt know if we need to have like $8,000, $5,000 or whatever for friday. so we have to do everything last minute, which means, i might not get the top choices for my classes because dowling college is fucking retarded.
im getting really nervous about going now. its all becoming real. i guess no one will ever understand how this feels unless youve actually done it. i leave september 8th. id like to go a little earlier, but im not too sure if ill be aloud in the apartment any earlier, and if i go, then ill have to pay for a hotel and all that nonscience. and then another thing. ILL BE GOING BY MYSELF. that scares me. i kinda want greg to come with me. and he said he would, but is it kind of selfish to ask him to pay $1300 for a plane ticket just to make sure im okay, then idk hell prob be bored, like it wont be a vacation for him. then do i pay $800 to go on delta which is a shitty ass airline, go to amsterdam, have a 6hour layover, be stuck in a weirdo country, but allowed to safely smoke weed, and have the chance of getting lost, or spend $1300 to fly alitalia, fly to rome, have a 1hour layover, and then go straight to florence? and if i get lost i can speak to these people? should i spend the $500 more? it seems as though everything i do is money. EVERYTHING I THINK ABOUT IS MONEY. i am making no money whatsoever at marshys, they are cutting hours like whoa, cuz they hired so many people. and its rediculous. im trying to save for italy, but i need to spend money to survive, and lets not forget my shopping obsession. im trying to help my mom with shit, but im not, and im an idiot. i dont know what to do. on the bright side:
Felicia will be in Naples in November. and she said her, and her cousin will take a train and come see me in florence, since shes never been-and i know the city like the back of my hand.
Stacey and Alex said they'd go, and that she wanted to go in either october or november. and shed def come see me if she goes, but shes not so sure if shes going definitely.
and neals saying he wants to go for his birthday. haha
if all these people come visit me it will be amazing. i will be extremely homesick and its gonna suck like whoa.
one of my friends that i graduated with that i was never really that close with, is going to be in bologna, which is about an hour away. and if i am despirately homesick, i will go see her. when your homesick, any familiar face would help.
anyway. i look forward to a lot this summer before i leave.
American idol is on sunday night. dan comes home either sat night or sunday morning, and i cannot wait till we go. \
August 5th is the Luau at my house for the engagement party
August 12th is the Dashboard concert at radio city
and courtney is coming some days after that
and ill be going to visit courtney either the begining of august, or at the end.
i dont think we are doing the annual Rennaisance faire, but we are going to six flags instead.
So excited. <3
well i have to go to dowling and i didnt think this was gonna be a long entry, but of course it is.

welcom2paradise @ 2006-07-06T13:03:00

2006-07-06T17:18:49Z

So life is pretty good- im enjoying my time imensly.
last week i...went to dowling and i got all acceptances for the classes ill be taking in italy. after that i went to ericas. i havent seen her once this summer so it was good to see her. we hung out in the pool, liam came over, and we had a wave pool, acted like asses, and had a good time. after that i went home and heather and rich came over, the invitations are done for the engagement party. idk if i mentioned, but my brother proposed to heather FINALLY. its been 6 yrs!!. he did it in disney under the fireworks. Aww i wish i coulda been there. so yay im gonna officially have a sister and im exctied. 3 boys gets to u. so uhmmmm what else. i went to get icecream the other day with dan. twas a good time, i got to see his yearbook. hmmmm. had dinner with dan and merry.. AT WHITECASTLE.. hahahahahaha wtf. then went to the movies with them. we saw Lake house. it was so cute. merry i think liked it but didnt like some parts. and dan, well dan i guess just didnt get it cuz he didnt like it. i thought it was SOOO Cute. all night we listened to american idol, we were prepping for the concert which is on the 16th. dan is going away on saturday morning, and is coming home on the morning of the 16th and then at night------WE GO TO THE CONCERT i am so excited, i cannot wait to see elliott im gonna cry like a 12 yr old girl. i might throw him muh bra. and im gonna squeeze kevin in the audience, cuz he told me hes going to both shows at nassau. so YAYY ill get to see kev again. the other night was so cool, me,sam,jen,dave,brian,andjon went to the beach in the middle of a lightning storm. we sat under this tent thing and watched the lightning over the ocean. it was so much fun. then we walked over in the pouring rain to the shell where they have weird bands perform. i love when its square dancing. but this time, it wasnt- it was LATINO NIGHT. so me and jon went in the middle of where all the people were dancing and we danced like fools, and THEY LOVED US. then sam and dave came and followed. AHHHH it was so much fun we were idiots and it was hilarious we danced for about an hour then headed back. i had no energy left.
july3rd was gregs birthday. i felt so bad for him. his boss at work had his surprise birthday that day and greg did all the cooking, so he spent his birthday in the kitchen, then at night went to his surprise birthday. but a lot of his friends came, and me and my mom went so it was a joint party. it was a good time.

my fourth of july was AMAZING. it was so much fun. the fireworks were outrageous. $5000 greg spent this year. and it was well worth it. they went from 6pm-11:30pm and they still WERE NOT DONE. we have so much left. we just didnt want the cops to be called. i love all my friends that came. it was a good time. some people attempted drama, but i looked the other way. we had a super time. people also said they were coming, and didnt. but that doesnt matter, cuz the people that came are muh life. and i loved it, had so much fun. the JONES BEACH WHAT??? GRUMANS WHO?? there were about 10 houses with their lawns filled of people sitting watching our show, plus the 100 people at muh house. it was the best time. our show is the best. people that were having parties, actually brought their parties to our house. it was so much fun. and im glad greg had a good 22nd birthday.

well i just woke up, its 118pm. im gonna get ready for my day. i have work at 4:30. ltr bitches<3

Sooo.. My life.

2006-06-25T17:42:22Z

So i havent updated in exactly 2 months, so i figure ill update on my life. since we are enduring 2 weeks of like monsoon rains. its redick. and im in the house doing nothing on a sunday afternoon.
School ended. shit over there went pretty smoothly. i do miss living away from home. i miss everyone over there. but it is good to be home. as much as i always said i hated dowling. im glad i went there. i met amazing people- had such great experiences.

since school ended i kind of have just been working the maximum i can, and have just been hanging out with the ones i love. i went to italy for 2 weeks as well. twas an amazing time. i met so many amazing people on that trip from all around the country. i enjoyed myself imensely. we went from milan-->venice-->padua-->pisa-->florence-->assisi-->perugia-->rome-->pompeii-->naples-->sorrento-->capri. it was such an amazing experience. my mom has never been to italy before, and all i wanted out of this trip was for her first time there to be amazing, i wanted her to get the full experience of the country, and i did not want her to be dissapointed with how the trip worked out. and it went AMAZING. i didnt get to go to orientation, although i should have told them i wasnt gonna make it, they kind of waited for me- but i just did not have enough time in florence. but whatev. it looks like im 98% going to school there. the 2% is me not going out of fear. but its something i just have to do. europeans have a special way of living. they go through life day by day loving each moment. take in each second. live for what its worth-drama free-with no worries. I WANT TO BE THAT PERSON. i want to wake up- and go through my day with no bullshit. long island is getting to me. trust me, i love the people here, but i think everyone needs to get away. EVERYONE needs to go to a different country. even if u spend a week there, u come back so changed. its like a clensing. it was soo good to get away.
now im back-back in LI-back in bullshit. but its okay bc i missed some people terribly.
i havent seen erica ONCE this whole summer. 2 days after i got back from italy-she goes to cali.. BLahhh...
sam turned 19 on june 13th we had a surprise party for her at applebees. it was good-she thought no one was gonna be there and we all showed up. she got pretty heated when she thought she was only gonna spend her birthday with david. haha
also something very exciting was that i turned 20 on june 19th. i rang in my birthday with daniel. i spent the night before with him, went and got icecream, and i had the envoy and we drove around all night blasting american idol, because we are prepping for the concert. haha it was so much fun. i enjoyed spending the beginning of my birthday with him. monday i went to the city with Samantha<3,Brian,David, Jon, Altaf & Nick. we had a good time. it was really hot-we went to the statue of liberty and none of us had done that b4 and i dont think we knew it would take a good chunk out of your day and since i had to be home at 5:30 we just went to the statue, had lunch, chilled-took mega pics, and since it was 4 by the time the boat got us back to manhattan- we didnt wanna go do something for a half hour so we made our way to the train station and got home. then i had a nice old fashioned classic BBQ, by everyone that was at the city, plus we were joined by nicole and vito. and my family. it was a good birthday. im glad it happened
on Friday night i got a call from ashley at 4:00 asking what i was doing tonight. i told her i had work at 5. she told me to call out she had an extra ticket to TBS. haha david covered for me, and ashley, henry, and myself made our way in the pouring rain to Nassau Colliseum. Head automatica was amazing as always. angels and airwaves were ehh... not really THAT into it. and they were not good live whatsoever. i mean, i can sit thru a set where they play amazing, they sound good, but im just not liking the music. id still say that they played good- but honestly-they DID NOT. You couldnt even hear tom delounge. the music was over powering and his voice got drowned by a big wave of drums, and the bass. i havent seen tom perform since blink182- and i was excited- but i left disapointed- anyway. the highlight for me was definitely TBS- they rocked it like no other. amazing. we didnt have G/A- we actually had seats in section 300, but then right before TBS came out- about half the people there decided to dodge security, break down barriers, and go to the floor, so me, henry, and ash went right to the side of the stage in section 100. we got soo close. it was fantastic. funniest thing had to be out of the 45 million billion people at nassau coliseum. guess who has a seat next to me? diane! haha it was really funny.
we had a good time, it was good to see ashley. i even got to see a lot of people from highschool that were there. twas a good time.
other than that-shits been good- people are graduating- and i cannot believe its been 2yrs since that was me. it is insane. i cannot quite think of whatelse to write about. i think this is pretty good for a 2 month update. my problem is that im on my sidekick 24-7 and havent been on my comp in a while- so i never update..... I KNOW........................I KNOW.. its hard to go on.. but its gonna be okay :-*
peace bitches

OH AND MY LINK OF MY PICTURES FROM ITALY:
http://community.webshots.com/user/welcom2paradise1

welcom2paradise @ 2006-04-25T01:19:00

2006-04-25T05:33:43Z

so i havent updated in about a month. and im really bored. so lets update now.

life has been pretty much the same. nothing really too new i guess. i go to school sunday-thursday and i go home for the weekend, hangout with my bestfriends, and go back to school sunday and do the whole damn thing over again.

Daves birthday was friday and we had a party for him on thursday. lol it was a good time<33
Ericas birthday was saturday. i brought nicole and sam to her party. it was a very random party.
the weather sucked, and it took over an over to get there, over an hour to get back, and when we got there
danny got really sick and they left. so basically i didnt know anyone except liam and josh and erica. but they were all drunk as shit
and since i was driving, i kind of peaced.

i got a call from Dr. Francesco Convertini the other day calliing from Florence Italy. to let me know that i was accepted into the fall 2006 fall progam at the school of NECA in florence. i was quite excited. so it looks like im going to go. id be gone from the end of august, and i would come home right around christmas. im very excited, but quite scared.

school is pretty much the same, theres nothing much i can say about it. math sucks because its too early.. idk how i used to get up when i was in highschool. i can barely make it every morning for my 8:30 class it blows. Economics is probably the class im most worried about. idk this guy is such a good prof. but his tests never have what he wells us to study for. and i hate economics.. but blahhhhhhhhhhh ill pull through. i always do. education is fantastic. we watch movies about drugs, talk about sex, and i go on my sidekick the whole time. there are no tests, no homework. its really good. anthropology is better than ever. im doin good in the class, he just expects a lot from us. but i havent been slacking so its alright. and Italian is as sexy as ever. its getting much harder. but its alright im up for the challenge.

i went to the city last week twice. once i went to the metropolitan museum of art with erica and altaf. it was so boring. i hate going to that place. erica had to do a project, and altaf went and helped her. i just wanted to go home SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO bad.
then last monday me, samantha, nicole, brian, and jon went to the city. we just went in for dinner. we went to jekyl and hyde. it was fun but i didnt expect it to be so expensive. they first off charge WAYY to much for a hamburger, charges you extra for french fries, and then charges you for entertainment. YET thats what the resteraunt is based on. its entertainment. and not to mention that we were put in the corner, where we didnt get to see ANY of the stage shows or anything. so therefore it was ghey. we then kinda just went to FAO schwartz, then went to toysRus, and then i got JAMBA JUICE<33 ive missed it ohh so much. then we ran to penn station lol. AND 1 AND 2 AND 3.. WE ARE ON A TIME CRUNCH HERE PEOPLE COME ONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.. lol

went to head automatica with ashley like 3 wks ago. twas a good time.

hmm? im not too sure what else has been goin on.
today i went to class, then went to go take a nap at 6pm. i set my alarm for 7pm. the alarm went off, i hit the button, and slept till 12am. now im kinda just doing nothing, and im going to go back to sleep. im sso fuckin tired. i average about 4hours of sleep a night. because im an idiot. meanwhile I LOVEEE to sleep. i just dont do it enough.

well peace bitches<33
i love my bestest friends<33333 MSNDJB<333

welcom2paradise @ 2006-03-28T16:28:00

2006-03-28T21:28:45Z

Hello everyone, so its been almost a month since the lasttime i updated. i dont want to say ive been really busy, because nothings been drastically different, ive just waited so long i just wasnt really ready to update a whole month worth of my life. but ill try to do it now. i just wont go into every crazy detail.

my life for the past month has been pretty much the same. every week passes by and i do the same thing religiously. i come to DC sunday night, classes from monday to thursday morning, pack my car, and go straight to work, work the whole weekend, then do the same damn thing over again.

i finally submitted pretty much most of the applications that ive been meaning to do, ive already gotten accepted into 2 schools, im waiting for another 2. its just a large step ya know? its not like ill be moving to florida, or california, or canada.. IM GOING TO ITALY!!!!.. my friends cant come visit me for the weekend... i mean they could, but theyd need a hella lot of money and theyd see me for like a day. i think when i get there ill notice more things, but right now im just realizing, ive NEVER been without my family on any holiday. i wont be here for halloween, or thanksgiving, because those dont exist on my birthday. and id be leaving a couple of days before my moms birthday. thats another thing. when im here at dowling, i miss my mom so much. i cry sometimes just b.c i miss her shes my life, and the fact that im half hour+ from her now, and i miss her for 4 days, what am i going to do for 4 months? its just a big step. but i think its a big step that i need to take. i talked to shawn tierney the other day and he goes to the university of amsterdam, and he said that i have to go. its going to be life changing. and i really appreciate what he told me, b/c ill regret it if i dont.

School here at dowling has been pretty much okay. i thought this semester economics would be better because my professor this time actually speaks english, and hes funny... but his tests are rediculous. anthropology- the class i was so worried about- is probably the easiest. italy- which i didnt have any concern over- is getting SO HARD he speaks SO FAST now like rediculously fast. i mean i know its advanced but its so tough. math, ive been having problems getting up early, but other than that the class is okay. and Education, is my most boring class, but im on my sidekick the whole class, and its good cuz i get to watch movies in there and its a fun class, but its also bad cuz it seems like everytime i go to the class, i buy another game on my sidekick. i already have 6. i get bored and i need to buy more. i have become obsessed.

another thing i have become obsessed with is Kevin Covais from American Idol. now, i know what your thinking.. hes not winning obviously he got kicked off, dont get me started because bucky should have gone, and now kevin cant go on tour and be on the cd, cuz its only top 10 and he was #11, but he is so freakin adorable. and its cute because kevins older brother played baseball with david, and jon goes to school with kevin, so jons gonna talk to him for me =).. the other night after experiencing the worst weekend of my life (ill share at the end), my friends decided to cheer me up and we went on a hunt for kevin covais things, even tho hes still in cali, we had a blast. we went to his house, david gave me his yearbook and i toook so many pictures of the pictures of kevins freshman picture, and his drama/chorus pictures. lol im obsessed i really need to stop. oh yes, and we also took pictures with the big sign in front of his highschool, and the other signs outside eisenhower park... dont worry youll see all my pictures. kevin was on jimmy kimmel the other day and he said hes still gonna be a normal kid and ride the bus and not gonna act any different. i now know where he lives and i now know where his bus stop is =) ill see u there kevin ;). okay need to stop. oh yah and ironically that night at 2am i was watching the best week ever and he was on. so i snapped a couple of pictures at my house of this stud. haha

last week we all went to nicoles house, we had a party there, and it got insanely crazy. we had so much fun, david got so drunk, didnt come home till 4am, which isnt that late, but when u have work at 8am its late. youll also see some of these pictures. ya know, the ones where everyone has clothes on =). david passed out and we put makeup everywhere on him. GOOD TIMES..

Italy- oh yes, italy. we booked the trip officially. May 30th we leave. i am so excited. and yes, if your wondering.. im going to italy with greg and my mom for 2 weeks in may/june, then im going to school there in august. i know.... its okay to be jelious.

so just as things were looking really good in my life, of course.... something horrible had to happen. the worst possible thing happened. i came home early thursday at 10am when i normally get here about 1, but my education class was cancelled, and my dog wasnt breathing right.. it sounded like she had a cold, greg had to go to work, so i told my mom lets call the vet and see if we can bring her in now. they said yes, greg lifted her in the truck, and we went. i didnt think anything of this, just thought it was a normal trip to the vet. thought maybe hed give her some form of nose drops, completely overcharge us like always and wed be on our way. while we were in there, he kept saying she didnt look good, and said he couldnt hear any air going into her lungs, she wasnt breathing properly and it had nothing to do with a cold, he went to go take an x-ray of her heart, we waited in the waiting room for a while and got called back in, i waited in the waiting room and about 45 minutes later the nurse got me and said "your mother would like to see you inside", i walked in the room and my mom was hunched over my dog on the table hysterically crying... "he says shes on her way out, we shouldnt make her suffer anymore" i broke down. i cryed so much. we stayed in the room with her for about an hour just kissing her and crying. i didnt want to do anything or make any decisions without greg or rich involved. you dont understand. my mother is my world, shes my rock. the strongest person i know. shes battled cancer and i never saw her cry like this. NEVER. thats what killed me. if your reading this and saying, "its just a dog" then your a selfish heartless pig and should be stabbed. because she wasnt just a dog. she was my sister. i used to tell people when i was little that i had a little sister. she went with us everywhere we brought her in the car all the time, she loved my mom absolutely ADORED my mom. one summer she broke through 3 screen doors because she would hear my moms car come in the driveway and she busted through to go greet her. we always used to get upset with her when she used to jump on the counter and eat my food. HOW MANY TIMES did i have to make a second sandwhich. she once ate a whole chicken. now i wish she could do that again. ive had her since i was 6 and a half. i remember the first day we got her. christmas of 1992. my mom with the video camera, me in a nightgown, my brothers in tight pajama pants, the doorbell rang, my dad dressed as santa was at the door with my puppy in his arms. i screamed and grabbed her first. 6 weeks old she was. THE CUTEST dog ever. she was so tiny. and i remember going right up to the camera, with barely any teeth in my mouth (because i had lost a lot right around that time). my hair a frizzy mess.. my nose all stuffed i go right into the camera and go.. "this is the best christmas". i just remember to this day how i said that. and it was. she was the best damn dog ever. and as i type this crying hysterically, i sit here and think about the past couple of months when she couldnt walk as good, and how she lost her eyesight, and partial hearing, when we would go up to her, she knew who we were and kissed us uncontrolably. probably the only dog that was fed streak, and chicken, and my mom always gave her macaroni. she was so spoiled. we kept maggie at the vet, we called the boys, they wanted to be there richie came all the way home to be with her, as did greg, and heather. and we sayed goodbye together. it was so hard. ive never seen richie cry. in my 20 years of living, ive never seen my brother cry, and my heart broke even more to see him like that. our lives were forever changed by that dog. a few days later we recieved in the mail a card from the vet, that made me cry, it had a nice poem, and it said something about, "we are sorry for the loss of your pet, but just know she had a wonderful home, and a good life". and that right there made me smile. i realized that she was the most loved dog, always recieved tons of presents on her birthday and christmas. she was never in kennel when we went away we always found someone to stay with her. she was spoiled. she was my favorite thing in the world. the rest of the weekend my friends were there for me, and i cryed a lot this weekend. i cryed when i was alone, i didnt want to cry in front of my mom. the night maggie passed, we had her buried in the backyard. we got her a coffin and we brought her home from the vet with us. the girls watched as the boys put the last bit of dirt over her, and my mom put flowers above. every morning, my mom goes outside and cries. she sits brings out a chair, has coffee with maggie, and just cries. that breaks my heart. my life has been forever changed by that dog, and you dont realize you have something good till its gone. coming home from work this weekend and not being greeted by her, or waking up and going into the laundry room (where she slept) and seeing that shes not there anymore. i put maggies favorite stuffed animal in there with her. it was my stuffed put dog that ive had for like 8 years. i used to lay with it and it was my favorite, now she is gonna lay with it forever. ive been trying to get my mom out of the house as much as possible. but when she visited me at work the other day and then said, "alright im gonna go make dinner and feed my baby", then she bursts into tears and leaves the store... that was rough...
i miss my beautiful puppy more than words can say.
Maggie Valentine
November 1st, 1992- March 23rd, 2006
the most photographed dog
"all dogs go to heaven"

im sorry if that made anyone sad, ill put up pics to lighten the mood.. click the link

alright we will start off, and get the HI MY NAME IS MARISA AND I AM OBSESSED WITH KEVIN COVAIS I HAVE PROBLEMS I NEED HELP pictures out of the way:

last picture of this weekend would be of daniel, with $1343942 dollars worth of tacobell. NO not all for him, although i wouldnt doubt he could eat it all, but me and him went on a crazy TB run for everyone at work on sunday.

MONDAY was ashleys birthday- we had so much fun.Probably the best cake ever made.. <3funfetti<3

me and ash went to waldbaums one time and she said she wanted this and she didnt buy it, so i got it for her.. MEET TWINKIE THE KID, i mean COME ON... everyone needs a twinkie holder!!! oh yes, and her crown.. courtesy of allie.

when allie saw what i got ash, she ran into her bedroom and showed us these amazing pajama pants that i might have to steal from her

My Suitemates<3

how hot is my roommate?? i took this doesnt it look professional. black and white and green =)

HEY NOW...

okay, now before the festivities started, me and allie hit THE DOLLAR TREE and she decided that the face pore cleaner machine that looks like a vibrating dildo. will suck your pores and clean your skin. she then learned it just like sucks your skin. and does nothing. but its fun and was well worth the dollar.
Shes determined:

haha mike loved it =)

okay now these next pictures are from the course of march. i have about 200 others but i just picked some of the best.

of course i took this for my main italian squeeze =)

from the party last week... david with makeup. many drunken lapdances/ trampolines/nakedness..

poor david..

and we will end off with a fabulous picture of my bestfriend and i on st. pattys<3

welcom2paradise @ 2006-03-04T01:32:00

2006-03-04T06:47:23Z

1:32am-perfect time for an update =). This week was hella good. Tuesday i took a math test, i actually think i did pretty well. then i hung around- took a long nap, read, and went to anthropology. idk what it is, but the class is getting a little better. partially b/c its my only class with erica. im so used to having that bitch in all my classes, and this semester, she is in only one, and it sucks. but we have a ton of fun anyway, i mean last class, we both wrote down on paper from 1-50 and tried guessing all 50 states, i won, she'll tell u i didnt, but shes just jelious :). haha anyway- after class, erica came back to the dorms, borrowed my chi turbo (idk if i shared it, but i got the chi turbo hair straightener=LOVE) we went to ashleys, and then erica bounced. i hung out in ash's room, we chatted for some and both realized we were mega starving. we were both uuber excited that they had just opened up a panera by school, so we went. she let me drive her brand new car lol i didnt even ask she just didnt feel like driving, so that was fun. omg i guess what heppened next was one of those things that u had to be there to find funny, but all im sayin is that we are coming out of the parking lot, and ash drops her bag, now we got soup and sandwhiches and i grab ash's bag, and all iknow, is that the bag is now warm, and mushy, feels like a diaper... yahhh her soup exploded, and all we wanted to do was get back in time for the real world. we got to her room, and basically wrang out the bag and squeezed it like toothpaste. omg i never laughed that hard. we settled down and hung out-then i retired to my room.

wednesday was interesting. erica asked me to go to lunch with her after my classes she wanted panera, i couldnt do panera 2 days in a row, so i just sat with her and she said OH LOOK THERES NELSON (i thought she meant the spanish man who was sweeping//making a joke or something) but no, nelson was there by himself on his lunch break. so i got to see him =) he is so damn cute love him to pieces. we chatted for a while, caught up on things, while er did her statistics hw. lol. twas very nice to see him love himmmmmm.... n e who who....fast forward to 10pm my roomies and i decide to make a huge dinner. Chicken, rice, mac and cheese, corn, breadsticks.. THE WORKS haha we havent done that in forever and we were all hungry, then i started to watch project runway, then ash came over she needed somewhere to print. my printer is home cuz i was too lazy to bring it to school, and allies didnt work, and alexs didnt open powerpoint, so we went to chanels room... she had post-its stuck in it.. lol long story short- me, allie, and ash wind up doing dances, twirls and spins and leaps in front of the security.. THEY LOVED IT.. went to ash's... then kept doing hit and runs to mikes room since ash is right next door. we then had dave and mike come in... idk shit got crazy in there. we turned retarded. it was a good time tho. all in all it was an amazing night.... we retired to our rooms by like 2 so ash could finish her work. but then she came back by 4am to read me her project, and then we noticed someone had a boner.. LMFAOOOO me, her and allie laughed for hours............ dont ask.... i love that bitch so much.

thursday i didnt go to classes but i think they were cancelled anyway so its okay- i woke up late, straightened my hair and i had work at 2.. it took me an hour and a half to get home the snow was insane everyone was swirving i saw 2 accidents and someone drove their car up on the grass in a spin.. i was so nervous, but thankfully i made it safe. work was slow..but i got to see my mister kyguy face<3 (check out myspace new pic of us).. and i got invited to go see headautomatica with him, i think im gonna bring ashley. i cannot wait.. seeing them with my 2 favorites?? duhhh <3333 thursday night i just stayed in and watched american idol.. EVERYONE needs to vote for Kevin.. hes a home town guy, and he needs to stay away from the bottom 3 please
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today i worked 1:30-6 then came home, ate, got pics back <33, then hung out with my 2 bestfriends... wow what a way to end my day... its now 1:46am, and im ready for bed.....

welcom2paradise @ 2006-03-04T01:24:00

2006-03-04T06:26:56Z

TAKING BACK SUNDAY LYRICS

"MakeDamnSure"

You've got this new head filled up with smoke
I've got my veins all tangled close
To the jukebox bars you frequent
The safest place to hide
A long night spent with your most obvious weakness
You start shaking at the thought you are everything I want
'Cause you are everything I'm not

And we lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close (How close is close enough?)
We lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close

I just wanna bring you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
I just wanna bring you down so badly
In the worst way

My inarticulate store bought hangover hobby kit
In time, it says, "You, oh, you are so cool."
It says, "The shade across the bed, you are red, violent red."
You hollow out my hungry eyes
You hollow out my hungry eyes

And we lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close (How close is close enough?)
We lay, we lay together just not
Too close, too close

I just wanna bring you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
Well I just wanna bring you down so badly
In the worst way

I just wanna bring you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
I just wanna bring you down so badly
In the worst way (worst way)

I'm gonna make damn sure that you can't ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
I'll make damn sure that you can't ever leave
No, you won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far from me
You won't ever get too far...

I just wanna bring you down so badly
Well I trip over everything you say
Well I just wanna bring you down so badly
In the worst way (worst way)

I'm gonna make damn sure
I just wanna bring you down so badly
I just wanna bring you down so badly (damn sure)
In the worst way (worst way)

welcom2paradise @ 2006-02-28T13:45:00

2006-02-28T18:54:57Z

Yesterday was so much fun i had class from 8:30-11:20 then a break then italian from 1:00-2:20. Classes went great, afterward i went straight to hangout with Erica, Ashley, and Ash's 2 friends. we were gonna go get pizza but then my mom and brother called me and said they were right by my school if i wanted to get lunch with them, so i went out with everyone and didnt eat, i just hung out with the 2 girls i love, then was picked up by the fam, we went to this cute resteraunt in the town of sayville. a lot of laughs were had and im glad i got to see everyone. then i went back to the dorm till 5:20, saw mike for a bit, then went to ericas, mark and dan came over =) we had dinner, and hung out, they drove me back to school around 10, we picked up, and got nutty. we saw a murder scene LMFAOOO it was absolutely hysterical. i cant tell u how much i love those 3. i love them sooooo sooooo much.... NOW FOR SOME PICS OF YESTERDAY Ashley and Erica<3

MY BOYS<3 Dan and Mark<3

This picture is my absolute favorite. I FUCKIN LOVE IT

i love mark<3

VEST LOVERS<3

hi id like to take u and keep u in my pocket forever<3

My friends are my life and i cannot tell u how much im enjoying life.

welcom2paradise @ 2006-02-26T21:45:00

2006-02-27T03:05:30Z

PICTURE UPDATE.. click the link<3

Why hello everyone =). i dont know why but i am in an unbelievable mood. this weekend was perfect. i spent it with my bestfriends and everything went just right. in the past 4 years, i dont think i can say that ive ever had a more unbelievably fun day at work. today was exceptional. it was my day off but i was called in to do the stockroom and break down giftware, and i spent my day my 2 favorite guys, altaf and daniel. it was a freakin blast idk it was just so much fun, and i am glad i worked, my friends are the best, and my weekend was just relaxing and supurb. jessika how i love u so.....

This picture is perfect..

my lovely room that just got redone.

Me and Conor Mc Clancy Face that i love so much<3

How amazingly adorable is my Niece?? shes so cute she fell asleep in lissys arms<3

this is my brother. he is my bestfriend<3

TODAY AT WORK<3
Altaf, Brian, and Daniel=my life

Daniel gets naked, and i dont think anyone minded?

my babies<3

Dont look too happy Daniel?

love you bri<3

welcom2paradise @ 2006-02-23T09:44:00

2006-02-23T14:54:11Z

Alright well shits been pretty good with me, 2wknds ago when i was caught stuck in the snow storm for the weekend was actually not bad. i redid my whole room i put up all of my posters, my pictures, my stars, everything. it looks really good (see the pics from the entry 2 b4 this one). then i watched duece biggalow european giggalo. twas a good time. all my roommates and everyone here thought that classes would be cancelled, but uhmmm they werent, but it was okay i didnt mind. things have been semi different this semester seeing that my roommate is never here. she does student teaching in bayshore i think or babylon,, or somewhere, so she stays with her friend that lives close by there so she pretty much sleeps here like once a week i never see her. ive been getting a lot closer with allie, ive learned rather than getting mad at the shit she doesnt do, just kind of laugh it off. and alex, well its kind of hard to not get along with her. Valentines day was such a good day i got so many roses (36 to be exact) from a lot of boys, and i had an amazing dinner with my Samantha Michelle, Brian, and David. We laughed and Laughed, and just screamed BREAST throughout the whole dinner. it was a good time. Wednesdays is Project Runway night, so its bond with the roommates night. During the weekend i know i worked, and i went to the witches brew with Samantha, David, and Altaf. twas a fun time. Saturday again i wound up at the witches brew again with conor, it was so much fun. it was a long awaited hangout and i am so glad that it happened, hes just super. lots of laughs.we didnt have classes monday so i stayed and worked. Well sunday i worked 9am-6:30pm and monday just 9am-12:00pm. Classes this week went real quick. Anthropology i had my first paper that was due. i think i did alright, yesterday i had a lovely afternoon with erica, then i went to bestbuy then went out to dinner, then i got to see my niece she turned 2 months =) and i got her so many gifts. FOR 2 MONTHS! i dont want to think about when shes a year, i probably will give her like a pony or something i couldnt tell u. well i have one more class and its the weekend, so im going to go pack, then get ready for education<3

welcom2paradise @ 2006-02-13T02:53:00

2006-02-13T05:50:50Z

okay so i dont know why im going to post this, but i decided im going to. its part of an entry i stumpled upon while looking at my old entries its from a year ago, and it was part of a huge entry i had written, the first part was about how i was losing a lot of my friends from highschool and i was really just upset and then i continued with something that just now after reading it a year later, makes me so happy, makes my life so much better, and i get put in a better mood by reading this, now that after a year, i am still in that better mood. i wouldnt want it any other way.

"So after realizing how much some people suck, i smiled because i thought of the one person in my life right now who i wouldnt give up for the world. he means everything to me and it scares me, though ive known him for such a short time it scares the shit outta me, i dont know what i would do with myself if he wasnt in my life. i had a lot of time to think over and over about this, and he is the singlehanded most greatest thing that has happened to me in a while, when i wake up its from him calling, when i fall asleep, we're talking again, plus the 27 times during the day, its just a scary thought to think how empty id be without him."

then after writing that i recieved a comment. it puts such a smile on my face. i cant even tell you.

"omg i dont know what to say i feel the same way... its kinda weird i feel closer to you than i do most of my friends and weve only known eachother for such a short time... our memories together are going to be everlasting... from the late night talks to my failing grades to the early morning conversations to our special 4th period class that we take together..341. if ya know what i mean lololol.... i guess u could say that this is our little inside joke... you wonder when will are talks stop what we will do.. and then i tihnk to my self they prob wont ever stop bc frankly dont think i could make it through the day without you".

then i comment back and i get probably the best return response comment from a book. and it was just the cutest comment i could ever get. hense my name being replaced by the character. it was so cute.

"I love you!" The words burst out pure and unfettered, infinite. The feeling flooded my chest. "Truly I do. I love you Richard Parker (Marisa Cellucci). If I didnt have you now, I dont know what I would do. I dont think I would make it. No, I wouldnt. I would die of hopelessness. Don't give up, Richard Parker (Marisa Cellucci), don't give up. I'll get you to land, I promise, I promise!". "Life of Pi" By Yann Martel

i was having a real bad day, and that just allowed me to go to sleep with a smile on my face.

welcom2paradise @ 2006-02-13T01:34:00

2006-02-13T03:40:27Z

MORE PICTURES OF YESTERDAY AND BEING BORED TODAY BEING SNOWED IN

when i get bored, i take pictures

DIANE AND TOM- BRUSH BRUSH?? lol

i have 2 tall managers.

today being really bored in the snow storm.

my bedroom

my messy living room

my kitchen

the bathroom

if your not on this closet, your not my friend.

AND IM DONE <3

welcom2paradise @ 2006-02-12T02:08:00

2006-02-12T07:22:08Z

School this past week was alright. italian is obviously my favorite class by far, and it is not just because of Giuseppe, although he is amazing, i am with all my friends that ive been with since freshman year, so i like it. i dont know anyone else in any of my other classes and it sucks. oh well. on monday i almost passed out in my math class, i was very faint, i didnt eat or get any sleep. it was rough. i cannot stand that class. this week was just kind of boring. on thursday i went to work right after my classes. it was kinda boring, but oh well. afterward i went shopping with dan, mark, and erica. i got cute gifts for daniel. friday i worked 12-4:30, i picked daniel up from work and we went out to dinner. we went to bertuccis in westbury.it was a nice place. saturday was daniels birthday, i was just very lazy, i went into work, visited some darlings there, and then i drove back to school tonight rather than tomorrow, daniels working for me tomorrow in the morning so i dont have to drive in the crazy snow. tonight me and allie had some drinks and watched duece biggalo european gigalo. twas a good time. NOW FOR THE PICTURES

erica and i in the dowling college bathroom, downstairs in kramer science lol.

me and my darling roommate vita.

me and kyle, me and nicole<3

Diane is the craziest bitch around

when david smiles, the room gets a little brighter.

tom is my favorite guy around

happy birthday daniel<3.. out for his birthday.

AND WERE BACK =)

welcom2paradise @ 2006-02-01T17:53:00

2006-02-02T00:07:46Z

i havent updated in quite sometime. things have been alright i guess. i worked thurs,fri, and saturday. Saturday was rough because i was doing cash office at 7am, then my plan was to go to the dorms and move in, and come home and chill. well, it kinda went like that. i woke up earlier than i wanted to our new manager Duane was opening the store for the first time. i was nervous cuz in the back of my head i thought something would go wrong, and boy did i jinx myself. i picked him up from the train station because his car was broke, and on our way to work, he starts flipping out, and he forgot his keys. now, its not like he lives around the corner- he lives in harlem. so we didnt know what to do.. mind u, its 7am, carol (the store manager) was the only option so she had to drive a half hour on her only day off. it was real hard calling her, we didnt get to enter till about 8. the store opens at 9:30 so rather than having 2.5 hrs to prepare b4 the store opened, we only had 1.5 i didnt get out till about 12 which wasnt bad, thank god it didnt take me a long time to do the c/o b/c then i would have been annoyed, afterward sam met me at my house and we went to my school and she helped me move in. i got to see mister victor, and i just moved in and then fixed my schedule. instead of having a class from 4:00-5:20 everyday i now have an 8:30am class. it sucks, but in a way its good, because after this week i realized it is probably better to have early classes and take naps rather than wasting your whole day. we then went to islip and saw mr. charles ahaha i miss him<3 i pull into my driveway, say goodbye to my lover, walk in my garage, and dan calls me. he needs someone to come back into work. of course i said yes cuz im broke as a joke and i need money so i went in. i worked till close, and it was an alright night. i was in sportswear, but i wasnt in there for a long time i was just being called all over the place. whatever, it was fun. after work me and dan went into walgreens and got our pictures made from mr b's dinner because we want to send them out. sunday was just an amazing morning. Breakfast At Tiffanys was so much fun. haha i had a blast with the only person i want to have spent my last day with. case closed.
Monday was my first Day of school. it was alright. i had to wake up mega early and do math. im seeing that im going to have a problem with it. its at 8:30 and i dont like waking up early. then at 10am i have economics. my professor is so much better than last semester, my professor is so much funnier. then at 1pm i had italian. it was so good to see everyone, i love that class. Tuesday i woke up early AGAIN for my 8:30 class then i had class at 11:00, it was my education drug class, SOOOO boring. i just texted the whole time. i mean, come on, hes just gonna tell us not to do drugs, and what to do in the chance that a student will start doing drugs, THATS PRETTY MUCH IT. at 5:30 i had my 3hr anthropology class. it is SO boring and i heard the professor is horrible. hes real damn hard. im gonna dieeeee in this class. today i got to sleep a little later, i didnt have math, just italian and economics. tonite i think im gonna go to the gym, and get nutty and party.
hmm thats pretty much it. Im bored. Errrrr K.Bye<3

welcom2paradise @ 2006-01-26T19:43:00

2006-01-27T01:02:30Z

hey everyone. again, my journal entries this month were far and in between, but once again its cuz i have my sidekick and im on that all the time, therefore there is no one who gets to read this by clicking on the link from my profile, because well, sidekicks get rid of your profile when u r on them, and give the whole VIA HIPTOP thing, then u have to explain WTF A HIPTOP IS lol omg annoyingness.. anyway.. winter break is coming to an end. tomorrow at like 9am i will move some shit into my dorm. then coming home to work 12-6, then work cashoffice 7am-9am, wait for my mom-and do some last minute shopping and either move in saturday night or sunday. i have yet to decide. my life is pretty much okay. samantha keeps me sane, and occupied throughout my days, and without her im not so sure where id be. i went to the city the other day-that was fun. hmm what else? oh sunday was the big going away/retirement party for mr. b.. we were expecting about 37 people, uhmmm about 52 came haha, it was a blast. i throw some damn good parties!!! idk what else to say. ive been doing a lot of shopping. shopping at which i DO NOT have to do. im getting really depressed when it comes to money, i really want someone to throw like 100,000 in my face and id be so happy. id be able to pay for college, get a new car, pay for italy so my mom doesnt have to, and pay for vegas. im thinking im gonna get another job while at school this semester, but honestly.. my schedule sucks this year i dont think ill be able to:

Mondays:

Economics thought and modern world II from 10am-11:20am

Intermediate Italian Grammar and Composition from 1:00-2:20

then Math from 4:00-5:20

Tuesdays:

Education "student at risk" from 11:00-12:20

math from 4:00-5:20

then Anthropology "patterns of culture" from 5:30-8:10

Wednesdays:

Economics thought and modern world II from 10am-11:20am

Intermediate Italian Grammar and Composition from 1:00-2:20

thursdays:

Education from 11:00-12:20

then Math from 4:00-5:20

2 things i hate about my schedule: i like having classes that end early on thursdays because if i come home for the weekends, i like driving home early and beating traffic, and usually went home right after my last class on thursday, and if i do that, ill be in the heat of traffic, and that will just suck. what i also hate about my schedule is that there are crazy breaks, my last 3 semesters i had class on top of class, this way it seems to go faster. if u look at my monday for example i have an hour and a half in between each class. the only thing im seeing good about this is if i have 2 presentations or 2 tests in a row, i can go in the library or back to my room to study, but i think id rather have in a row... if i were to have those 3 classes on top of eachother id finish at 2:20 rather than 5:20... i woulda saved 3 extra hours out of my day.. which means i could very well get another job.

im depressed in seeing how my schedule is, maybe if i go into student services tomorrow morning and maybe see if i can get another math class, cuz frankly that is whats killing me right now. its in a bad ass time.

welcom2paradise @ 2006-01-15T21:33:00

2006-01-16T02:58:10Z

So my life is pretty ideal. i love my friends. shit is just swell..... ill update later.. pics nowww..

haha soo that picture is pretty rad..... and lets just show some more of my totally amazing friends..

The crazy christmas house in deerpark...

the blow up house with crazy blowups:

friends rule my world:

city trip BITCHES

new years at my house

more friends i am obsessed with

my loverrrrr<3

awwweee daveeee

adorableeee

welcom2paradise @ 2006-01-11T22:14:00

2006-01-12T03:25:44Z

so my life is kind of pointless, i pretty much have been doing the same thing. i wake up 2hrs before work, get ready, then go straight to work. and then at night i hangout with some good people. uhmmmmmm Hmmmmm.....?? idk what ive been up to? Ehh this journal entry is kinda lacking.... monday was a horrible day at work. i worked 10am-7:30. it was retarded. so much rediculous shit happened. yesterday i worked 12:00-4:30. i woke up real sick. a crazy cold. then i went out to dinner with greg and mom. straight after dinner daniel came to the house and we went to barnes and noble. then we just hung out and worked on his crazy schedule he has in the next 2 weeks. then i changed, got ready and went to the cup with brea, bridget, and knoll. twas there till after 12, and i was supposed to go and sleep at dans with mark, but i really wasnt feeling up to par, so i just hung out and phoned it for a while with samantha michelle<33. today i slept till like 1:30, then i was just real lazy didnt shower till like 5pm haha and went to work with my mom she wanted to look for rugs, saw some special people =), and left.. mommy made gnocci.. my favoriteee ever.. and im kinda just relaxing...looking to regain my health. tomorrow i work 3:00-7:30. Tommy and Court came =). i was so happy i got to see em. they got here real late. they got here about 10:30ish, we went to applebees. i showed them around the area. and we kinda came home and relaxed. tommy blew up the air mattress lol and it was a lovely slumber. i had work 10am the next morning and they had to get back on the road and pick up tommys grandparents, so we left together. uhmm i need to roadtrip it to Bath, NY NOWWWW!!! lol. hmmm what else have i done since the last entry? uhmm me and daniel went to fra for dinner the other night. twas a good time. i got to see dan before he left for mexico i hung out with him, mark, danny, and katie. <33. i went to the mall the other day with katie, danny, and mark. i got a present for bridget, and a tinsel tree that only cost me $1. lol its amazing im gonna put it in my apartment. i watched the Ring II at sams with david the other night. the movie sucked, but the company was splendid... Uhmmm.. thats it... my life is alright... im just kinda tryin to get these vacations planned, and im feeling like im a highschool senior simply cuz now im filling out applications for study abroad.. and i completely loathe the study abroad process. they blow..... thats all.. im tired... goodnite<3

welcom2paradise @ 2006-01-05T00:50:00

2006-01-05T05:56:24Z

so i havent updated in a hella long time, and theres a reason.. im on my sidekick WAY TOO MUCh and my readers dont get to read cuz the link isnt in my profile anymore.. so if people dont have my journal saved on there comp, no one reads it.. lol.. i thought about that way too much. Anyway. my life has been pretty much okay. new years was fab. greg had a shindig at my house. i just kinda layed low and hung out there. i like being home for new years. i dont wanna leave my mom so its a good thing to have a party there so u can spend time with your friends and fam. it was also rich's birthday. he turned..... 23. i went to bed around 3ish, and worked the next day 1-6. it wasnt bad. afterward we had our annual big new year dinner with the fam. it was a good time. then ive been working pretty much.. Uhmmmmmmmmmmmmm i went out to dinner with diane and dan the other night. twas fun. then me, kyle, diane, and david went to the crazy house in deer park with all the lights, then we went to mountmisery haha havent been there since the summer. good time. i went to dans house the other day in merrick, got to see mark, dan, katie, and taco<3 they were obsessed with my sidekick. dan got one yesterday and marks getting one tomorrow. lol so many people have it, but i am the originator.. well not really, vic and jess are.. but w/e lol...<3 oh yes, and vic and jess.. I FUCKIN MISS THEM SO MUCH. uhmmmm i went to the city with merry, breanne, and diane.. it was an alright time. ive decided im not going to do anymore fun things with people at work anymore. that was our last "city trip" it was my fourth year going on december 30th, we go every year. and i feel like people just didnt wanna go, and they didnt wanna tell me they didnt wanna go, so they all waited last minute and came up with excuses why they couldnt. so that pissed me off, and i realized im just not gonna be social with anyone at work anymore. except my 3 favorites. thats it..hmmmm erica came home yesterday.. she loves her dolce and gabbana sunglasses i got her..Hmmmm oh then we went and saw the family stone with dan, mark, and katie.. IT FUCKIN BLEW.. all im saying is no need to see diane keatons breast.. or LACK THERE OF, and there was a big black lady who yelled at us for talking and had really bad gas.. other than that, we were the only ones in the theatre. Today i bummed around all day, cleaned, and then was supposed to hangout with sam but i didnt get done cleaning till late, then went to dunkin and saw dan and neal, and we sat in my car and listened to celine dion and had a concert.... uhmmmm we are also going to vegas.. hahahahaha <3 cant wait for that... hmmmmmmm i love my ipod.. i love my sidekick, my digi, my friends, my family.. idk what else to say. ....im gonna show random picturessss..

OHH YAH COURTNEY FUSCO, MY FAVORITE GIRL IN THE WORLD IS GONNA BE HERE TOMORROW, her and tom tom tunison<3 are staying overrrrr YAYYY i love them

haha and i just found this picture from when marc was home inthe summer, and it made me giggle.. uhmm i did a bad job straightening my hair... my hair matches my pants.... dans waving, my car looks sexy, and so does marc..Marc looks like hes gonna kill dan??? lol... MMMmmmm<3 that is all..<3

Uhmmm i love these people and we need to slumber again NOww..

this pic is over 4 years old, but i love my hair in it.... its amazing and i love it

welcom2paradise @ 2005-12-26T10:30:00

2005-12-27T00:44:45Z

Hello and welcome to my post christmas entryyyy YAHHHHH okayyy...

working christmas eve 8-1 wasnt bad at all.. tho everyone was late. daniel didnt arrive till about 10:15 when he was scheduled for 9, altaf thought he was scheduled at 9:30 it was 9, he got there late. lisa bell was an hour late. dan kinney didnt know he was supposed to come in, idk EVERYONE got there sched fucked up lol so it was weird. but it went real quick. i got coffee with marc. we made up everythings fine YAy... dont even get me started on that fight. first in 3 years? sweet deal. anyway.. coffee=amazing. and i got my stuff from him, he gave me marines shirts and sweats. twas fun... haha and i laughed he gave me the golf ball that he stole from marshalls that got him fired 3 years ago.. haha. i took a 45, 15 minutes break. fun deal. after work i went to my house and i really dont remember what i did, i just hung out?? Hmmmm we had dinner, FUN STUFF, then i kinda passed out. i had a slumber party too.. YAYY... my christmas was a little different for my family this year. it wasnt the normal wake up early, watch the parade on tv, have a big breakfast, open presents under a tree, family come over, big dinner more presents, alcohol and dessert type of event. it was just like every other sunday.. except i got gifts, and i opened them at 9pm. lemme explain. seeing that my mother is a 911 operator, its a 24-7-365 job. so since she works friday/sat/sunday and christmas and christmas eve landed on those days. she has to work. greg cooked all the food. good to have a chef as a brother. and my mom didnt come home till after 7 and we ate, opened presents and she was too tired to go to my aunts. in the morning we all went to my dads. i got my digital camera. IT IS BEAUTIFUL. i got a gift certificate from broadway.com which is good for one full price ticket to a broadway show. everyone in my family got one. i got some money and some other little stuff from my dad. my mom i got pajamas, pants, all philosophy body wash shit that i love, and MY NEW IPOD!!! i got the video ipod its amazing. not the nano cuz the nano sucks, i got the amazing one. in black. gregory bought me my sidekick. so that was my present. richie gave me an american express gift check, and with that i bought today my memory card for my digi that holds over 600+ pictures and then i bought the converter so i can play my ipod in my car. its crazy sweet. heather got me a gift certificate to uggs.com so uhmm GETTING ANOTHER PAIR BEEEACHHHESSSS.. lol line of the night:

on the phone with dan trying to tell him about my uggs g/c:

Me: Guess what i got for christmas from heather?

Dan: what?

Me: its something i dont need any more pairs off, i have too many but i want more of....

Dan: THONGS??

lmfaooo asshole.. anyway.. so im excited and she got me a scrapbook paper maker thing. and im stoked. gotta get on that scrapbook shit. uhmmm so yah i got some fun things. it just wasnt a good day for me i was just depressed i wasnt having the christmas everyone else has. we didnt even put up a tree. because the house is getting redone still and we couldnt take the boxes out of the attic from the garage and bring em to the den that is all upside down still getting redone. sooo idk it was odd.. i know im getting older and i know things change. but please. dont change christmas on me. it was just rough and i was upset a lot of the day. i also was real upset cuz i didnt set my alarm and i was supposed to wake up mega early and see marc, and he called me to say goodbye at 9:15 and i was still sleeping hes like"im on my way to dunkin then im leaving" i flipped out, jumped in my car with no makeup, no clothes (pajamas) lol and ran to see him i just cryed i dont want him to leave me again.. 10 days went too fast.... today at work i flipped out on everyone.... i dont know if its b/c of marc but ive just been miserable all day and i cant take people anymore. my heart left me for 13 months. and now i just sit here and blame myself for fighting with him for 3 out of those 10 days he was home... idk whats going on tonite cuz people switch shit on me.. soooo idk. werfhwofbgosdfuosaf this update is over.

welcom2paradise @ 2005-12-23T18:38:00

2005-12-23T23:43:35Z

i forgot to post pictures of my fishies. my brother has a 180+ gallon salt water tank. my fishies are shy. i have about 15. i took pics of the photogenic ones.

the bottom two are of my puffer fish. he is sexy. hes a monster. i love him. in the top 2, notice i have a nemo fish. hes really big. hes gotta be or hell get eaten. then i have a dorey fish from nemo. hes blue and black with a yellow tail. then i have a purple and yellow tang, the yellow one with the black and white striped face is poisonous. i have much more fish, they just hide when they saw the camera. if u look real close in the 3rd picture with the puffer fish, u can see these wings on the top of the picture. its black and white striped, u see 3 on each side. thats the poisonous lion fish. he was hanging out on the top of the tank although u cant see his body. hes sexy.